Showing posts with label personal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label personal. Show all posts

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Good Bye, 2009 and the zeros, or whatever

No time to do a "year in review" right now. Maybe later. Just happy to say that December has brought me over 18,000 page visits (that has not happened since April) and that yesterday, Dec. 30, I have over 800 visits. Wow, love you all :)

And, of course, some 159 of you follow me.

Little ol' me :)

Emily and I are getting dressed up and hitting a New Year's party this evening. Not such a huge fan of New Year's Eve. Boring, amateurish. Be lucky to still be there by 10:30.

Oh well, here's to 2010!



Source: Stolze

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Guy's Night Out


A bunch of my guy friends have an annual tradition. The night before New Year's Eve, we have a "guys dinner" at a local restaurant. Drinks at 6:30; dinner at 7:00. Tonight's that night.

We're all professionals, so we all generally show up after leaving the office, still wearing suits (ties have become rare the week between Christmas and New Years.)

I'm fairly certain, I'm the only one in the group, who will be wearing a girdle, panties, and stockings under my more masculine attire. Or any lingerie, for that matter.

So is you see a group of guys at dinner tonight, see if you can guess which one is the of the "suits" is also a sissy. Which one will go home and strip out of his suit and into a bra that matches his pretty peach girdle.

Which one, when he gets home, will have a significant other who asks, in a slightly mocking tone, "how was the guy's night out?"

That one would be me :)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

After the Celebration


When the guests have left, when all the presents have been open, when the holiday is over, all that's left is memories. And the mess the guests left behind.

Thus, I'll be spending today helping Emily clean. Dressed all pretty, it isn't a terrible way to spend a day.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Merry Christmas, again


I'll probably be quiet for the next few days, though I'll set up a scheduled post or two. Time to relax with family. See you all in a bit.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Black


I felt like black today. Black Cervin stockings. I feel slightly naughty.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Do You Like?

I received an email from Emily that had the title, "Do You Like?" I opened it up and found this. I sent an instant message back, which led to little Gmail chat session with her, that got me a little hot and a little ashamed.

Me (1:22 pm): Yes, she's very pretty.

Emily (1:22 pm): Duh, yea, she's pretty, but that's not what I mean.

Me: What? Blow jobs? I'm confused.

Emily: Giggle. Check your email.



Em: Get it? How about that? Do you like? Attractive and hot, no?

Me: Um, yes, she's pretty, too.

Em: Not the girl, silly! Look at them again, the other, um, thing .

Me: Emily!

Em: Come on, sweetie, just indulge me. Look at them again. I know a smelly, hairy man may not do much for most women (I've told you before women are so much prettier), but look at those cocks! Hot!

Me: Okay.

Em: Oh, you're being difficult. Watch how easy this is. Hey, you know our friend Erica? She's amazingly beautiful. Her body, her skin, are so hot, so wonderful. If I wasn't straight, I'd totally do her.

Me: Love to see that.

Emily: See, a woman can say another woman's hot, beautiful, whatever, no big deal. So, look at them again (NOT THE WOMEN). Do you like?

Me: Maybe.

Emily: Come on, you're not getting excited at all looking at those?

Me: A little.

Emily: Email.

Emily: There, how about that, TOTALLY HOT, isn't it?

Me: Yea...she is.

Emily: NOT THE WOMAN!!!

Me: You're making me blush. Okay, maybe a little.

Emily: You're boy side is such a pain sometimes. Stop. Are they hot or not?

Me: Fine. Yes.

Emily: Do you like?

Me: Fine, again, yes.

Emily: See? Was that so hard? Did time freeze because you admitted a man's (men's) cock(s) were hot?

Me: No.

Emily: Are you being honest, or are you just toying with me? Seriously. I know lots of men are icky, but, those cocks, do you really like? Do they turn you on at all?"

Me: A little.

Emily: You've got a ton of girl in you, sweetie, there's nothing wrong with being a little attracted to certain men. Look at that last picture again. She is very pretty, like you're pretty. Imagine she's you. Still like?

Me: Maybe.

Emily: A man's cock resting on your tongue, about to fully enter your mouth. Do you know how much I love that. Wetting my mouth, tasting cock.

Me: You never seem to want to...

Emily: Cock, silly, cock :)

Me: Hey!

Emily: Laugh. But this isn't about me. It's about you. I know you're part boy. I know you LOVE women. Tell me, when you're a girl, though, tell me, have you ever imagined it? Being that second woman, eyes closed, waiting, so near. That third woman, eyes closed, tasting it? Have you ever fantasized about it?

Me: Maybe

Emily: I knew it...hell, I know it. Of course you do. I know the girl in you must fantasize about it sometimes.

Me: That doesn't mean I'd do it!

Emily: But you fantasize about it. My pretty girl, you fantasize about it. Touching a cock. Tasting a cock. Licking. Sucking. You fantasize about it, don't you?

Me: Yes.

Emily: Email


Emily: I fantasize about it, too. I don't know that I'd EVER want to share you, but I fantasize about it. Helping you. Teaching you. Turned on now, sissy?

Me: Yessssssssssssss

Emily: Good! Cause when you get home tonight, you're going to take that sexual frustration out on me. With your mouth. On my pussy. While I'm telling you how hot it would be to watch you suck a cock.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Doctor, Doctor



I'm turning an age that ends in a zero soon. Ends with a zero and starts with a four. I'm pretty blah about that. It's a number. I've got a career, health (more below), a wonderful woman, and all that.

Part of celebrating the eleventh anniversary of one's twenty-ninth birthday, at least for a male (or sissy, or whatever...I have male parts) is a trip to the doctor for a physical.

So, off I went this morning. I'd planned on going, then coming home to change for work (doctor is only a mile away), so I was only going to wear track pants, a sweatshirt, etc. I went to my drawer (my boy drawer as Emily calls it) and got out a pair of boxer shorts.

"What are you doing," Emily asked me, walking into the room fastening an earring in her ear.

"I have my physical this morning; I did not want to put on a suit for that."

"No, no, I get that. I mean, what are you doing with those," she asked, pointing at the boxers in my hands.

"Emily," I groaned, knowing exactly what she meant in her tone.

She raised her eyebrows. "You don't have to wear a garter belt and stockings, for crying out loud, I wouldn't to the doctor, but you don't have to wear those, either."

"So what am I supposed to wear," I puffed, irritated at her. I knew I could do what I wanted; wearing boxer shorts was not 'forbidden' but Emily really didn't like it when I did, even if I had to for some reason or another.

Reading my mind, Em answered. "Wear whatever you want, but you now I'd prefer you in something besides those. Even cotton panties are better than those," she said, wrinkling her nose in disgust, which itself was humorous, as I know she found a masculine man in boxer shorts attractive.

"I don't have any cotton panties," I immediately retorted.

"And I'd never let you borrow a pair," she shot back just as fast.

I sighed, did the little thing I did, that facial expression, eyes closed, when Emily irritated. me.

"Do what you want," she said, putting it right back on me, turning back towards her jewelry box.

"Can I," I asked, finally.

"Can you want?"

"Can I borrow a pair of panties," I asked as humble as I could.

"You really don't have to," she said, a hint of triumph in her voice.

"Emily, may I borrow a pair of cotton panties, please?"

"Yes, you may," she said, going to her drawer, opening it, rummaging around. She turned and handed me both a pair of pink cotton panties and a matching camisole.

"Both," I asked, knowing what the answer would be.

She nodded. "I assume you'll undress alone, so I doubt you have any reason to be worried, though to be honest, do you really think anything a doctor sees really matters? You think an internist doesn't have several transgendered patients? You could go in there wearing a skirt and blouse and not raise an eyebrow."

It turns out she was right, mostly.

When I got there, the nurse escorted me to the room, handed me a gown, and told me to strip to my underwear (meaning my panties, of course, as she didn't know I was wearing a camisole, too.) She said she had to do an EKG, get my blood pressure, other vitals, then I'd finish undressing for the doctor. Thus, it sounded like no one would see.

Em was mostly right because the nurse did see more than the doctor. In doing the EKG, attaching leads here and there, the nurse rearranged the gown in a way that at least a third, maybe half of my panties were uncovered by the gown. I was on my back, looking down. I saw the pink, she obviously did, but said nothing. If anything, she was very kind to me, professional, yet extremely kind.

It was completely uneventful. The doctor saw me completely naked, no panties, did the physical. All is good. My ticker is great, blood pressure fine, weight great, etc. Prostate healthy (my first prostate exam.)

Emily asked me about that when I called her, but I'm saving that discussion, for another time.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Weekend


It was just after 1:00 in the morning, late Saturday, early Sunday. Emily was sitting on the edge of her bed, wearing only the bra, panty, and garter belt set, stockings, and heels, she'd work under her dress that evening at the small gathering we had at her place with some of her old friends.

I was getting ready for bed, too, a few minutes ahead of her. I'd already slipped my breast forms into my bra and slipped into a satin chemise and matching panties. I too had worn pretty lingerie that evening, only under slacks and a shirt.

We'd hosted a few of her high school friends who were in town over the holidays. Two other couples (she was friends with a woman of one couple, a guy of another), another old cross country friend, newly pregnant (smiles for her), without her husband (boo to him), and a single guy (Mark, a high school boy friend of Emily, a couple of years older than her.)

We all drank, ate dinner, played some stupid board games, which are actually quite fun, for adults, especially with a little alcohol involved. Em had invited all to drink what they felt like drinking, offering her guest room, sun room, and couch to anyone wishing to spend the night.

Only Mark, who'd had quite a bit of wine himself, stayed the night.

Now, I know there is nothing between Em and Mark. Well, Mark lusts for her, that's obvious, but Em did her dance with him, long before she met me, didn't want to dance for the rest of her life with him, ended it, just friends.

But that doesn't mean Em can't have her fun.

So, Emily and I were both slightly tipsy, having shared most of two bottles of wine, probably both a little horny, as we often get when we've had just that amount to drink. Emily was now mostly naked, about to take off one of her heels, when she looked up at me standing near the bed, all pretty.

"I saw the look in your eyes earlier, sweetie," she said innocently.

"Look? What do you mean?"

Emily looked down, as if she was slightly embarrassed. "When he mentioned that black party."

"Oh," I said, blushing myself.

I don't know if he said it to tease me, to tease Emily, to hit on her, because he was drunk. I don't know why he said it, I just know he said it, I heard it, and Emily saw the reaction in my eyes.

Mark was talking about some party he went to a few weeks ago, a "black party." Per the theme, everyone was to wear black. Mark's friend forgot to tell him about the theme, so he showed up wearing nothing black, feeling foolish.

Called out on it by the host, as Mark told us, sitting at one end of Emily's long table, opposite her, where the "man" of the house should sit, in the chair I was not sitting in, as I was at Emily's left hand, more like a servant, a lady in waiting, than a significant other.

"So," Mark says, loudly, "I tell him, but I do have something black, I've got a big, black cock."

The table all laughed, Emily's other guy friend decides to bust Mark's chops. "That's what all the lady's tell you, right, Mark, to make you feel good about yourself."

Without missing a beat, Mark looks down the table at Emily, a grin on his face, "I don't know, ask Emily, she was always telling me it was almost too big and I fucked her longer and harder and better than any guy she ever had."

"Mark," Emily said, with a nervous laugh. I looked at Em, who was red faced.

"I'm just saying," Mark grinned, glancing my way for an instant.

"Another girl just stroking your ego, little man," the other guy laughed, getting a winning role right then and there, letting the topic die without further comment or embarrassment.

Except to me.

Later.

"You were embarrassed?"

"Yes," I admitted, sitting down next to her on the bed.

"I'm sorry, I don't think he meant to embarrass you."

"He looked at me after he said it, I think he meant to tell me he was more man than me," I said, not thinking about what I just said.

That made Em giggle. "Well there's irony for you, no? The high school football player telling you he was more man than you, all the while you're wearing the prettiest satin lilac camisole and tap panty set under your clothes."

"Emily, you know what I mean," I said, the male part of my ego still wounded, full of pride.

"Do I? Did Mark? Do you think Mark's bed time routine was to give himself breasts? Do you think he's wearing a bra? Panties? A pretty satin nightie like you are?"

"Emily," I said, imploring her to keep her voice down.

"Cause as I remember," she said, lowering her voice, "his cock really was much too big to fit into a pair of pretty panties like you do. I could go check, just to make sure," she said, standing up facing the door.

"God, Emily," I groaned, almost shaking.

She grinned at me. An evil grin. She grinned, turned back towards me, pushed me back on the bed, got on top of me, straddling me. "You got a little excited, didn't you?"

I looked away, my non-response all the response she needed. She moved her hips, so her panty clad mound was resting on the swelling in my own panties.

"I know you, sissy, I know you were humiliated, but I know you were excited, too. I know what flashed in your mind, sissy, Mark, naked, his big cock inside me, fucking me. I know you were picturing that, weren't you?"

"Yes," I gulped.

"He was right, lover, he was the biggest man I've ever had, by far..."

"Uuuggg," I groaned. Emily had reached between us, moved aside my panties, taken me in her hand as she said this.

"And he fucked me harder and longer..." She moved me, directed me inside her, the warmth, the wetness, quickly enveloping me, surrounding me.

"Than anyone I'd ever been with before, or been with since." She pushed down on me, stopped, just sat there, unmoving. "Of course you are much bigger...up here," she smiled, hands moving to my chest, touching, massaging my fake breasts.

"Emily," I begged, trying to thrust my hips to feel movement.

"What? God, you're so fucking beautiful," she said, touching, every so slightly rocking her hips. "Is it in? I...I can't feel...I was thinking how he filled me...come on, please, I want you inside me."

"I...I am, Emily," I said, bucking slightly.

Emily leaned down, mouth to me ear. "Please, I want to feel a cock inside me, please, don't tease me," she whispered. "Please, fuck me." Emily moved her hips up and down slowly; I felt the head of my penis on the verge of, then pop out.

"Emily," I babbled, slurring her name, dizzy.

"Please," she cooed, pushing me into her again.

"Ohhhh," I gasped, the warmth once again surrounding me.

"Please, just this once, I want to feel you inside me," she breathed heavily into me ear, as if I was not in her right now, hips trying to thrust.

"Emily, I'm...."

She cut me off. "I'll go to him, sissy. You know he wants to fuck me, you see the way he looks at me. Please, I want to feel you inside me."

She was lifting her hips now, allowing me to thrust, matching, pushing down as I went up.

"Mark, my boyfriend's a sissy, he wears panties, he can't fuck me like you used to, please, Mark, please, fuck me, please."

I exploded. How could I not. I exploded, shaking everywhere, all over, exploded.

So did Emily, exploded with me.

We fell asleep like that, intertwined, sweating, messy, her former lover, sleeping down the hall, not knowing the part he played in our little escapade.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Uugh

Yes, I'm alive. Yes, I will post. But I've been totally swamped at work (like 12 hours a day, every day of the week) with several huge projects.

Oh, and to top that, I have a run in one of my stockings today. Do you think I have an extra? Nope. Grrrr.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Cold, still cold


Seriously, will this cold go away? Ever? At least I'm sleeping better, even if alone, still. Emily refuses to share my bed or let me share her bed. Not that I blame her. Don't want her to get sick, or have to listen to me sniffle all night.

We'll probably spend the weekend together.

She made me dinner last night. Spaghetti. Not as good as mine, though still appreciated. The show was nice, too, since she started cooking in between taking off her work suit and putting on casual clothes.

I sat on the couch for about fifteen minutes just admiring a beautiful woman in a simple white bra and panty set putter about my kitchen.

Monday, October 5, 2009

Colds

As a public service announcement, I want you all to know that going to an out of town wedding and spending two nights dancing and drinking IS NOT GOOD FOR A HEAD COLD.

I am soooooo tired.

On the other hand, I did enjoy dancing. For about an hour at the wedding reception, on the dance floor were ten or fifteen pretty women and me dancing. One bridesmaid commented that I was really cool, since I was the only boy out there dancing. I burst out laughing, of course.

Seriously, though, boys, men, sissies, whatever, if you are a genetic male, regardless of anything else, get out there and dance! The women, they love it. It matters not if you can actually dance.

Oh, and if you have a head cold and drink too much and dance too much, you WILL feel like crap the next day.

Though, if you do that, please, please, be sure not to do it on an empty stomach as my dear Emily did. You'll REALLY pay for that the next day (someone, not me, spent several hours sleeping on the cold bathroom floor.)

Giggle.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Wedding Weekend


Em and I have to go to an out of town wedding this weekend she is in, so posting will be light, if at all.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

One of those days


You ever have one of those days, the day that is going like Hell, and all you can think about is, please, please let it end so I can go home, slip into a pretty chemise, pour a glass of wine, and sit on the couch under a blanket and read a book?

Yes, I'm having one of those days!!!!!!!!!!!!

Uugh.

Emily


I doubt I'll ever post a picture of Emily, she is a tad more private than I am, and I've not even posted any of me. However, for the curious, she looks about like this. Tall (5'10"), skinny, leggy, dirty blond. That's pretty much her hair type, too.

Her best features? Her legs, by far, followed closely by her wonderful rear. She's not the most busty of women, but, as I heard someone say, breasts are for babies, legs are for men (or sissies, as the case may be.)

So, if you're into that type, she's that type she is. I am luckily into many different types, so it isn't just her body I lust for (and oh how I lust for it), but it is her wonderful mind, too.

Peace


I'm happy to report that we did kiss and make up. Eventually. Not without some cost to me, though, which I deserved.

Contrasts

I wore a three button, vested suit to work today. I have several vested suits and always get compliments when I wear them for how handsome I look.



Naturally, my friends, associates, and colleagues at the office who complimented me this morning have no idea that under my suit I'm wearing this pretty new open bottom girdle from Secrets in Lace along with 100% nylon stockings.

All day, every step I take, every motion, I feel the slight tug of the girdle on my stockings, a small, subtle reminder that no matter how masculine I may look at first glance, underneath, I'm also quite feminine.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Bad


Emily was a little miffed with me this morning and there is a fair chance I'm going to be punished when I get home.


Which, of course, will lead to kissing and making up.

Friday, September 25, 2009

evening


I'm making emily dinner tonight at my place. I also have several bottles of wine. We'll be like this way before midnight :)

Monday, September 21, 2009

Admissions

Emily and I were sitting on the couch, enjoying each other and a glass of wine, talking about a friend of hers and her relationship (her friend is a lesbian). We were mostly discussing the relationship issues, her friend is having issues with her girlfriend.

Emily reminded me of something we had discussed a few weeks back. "Remember how I said women are prettier than men?"

"Sure," I answered. That discussion had been something along the lines of her saying, "I'm heterosexual, but women's bodies are so much prettier and attractive then men's bodies." That got us on to the topic of why she's so attracted to me.

Our conclusion, at least physically, was that Emily found women to be beautiful, but sexually, was heterosexual.

Anyway, she asked me about her friend, Michelle. "Well, I was thinking, while I find women prettier and more attractive, I would not want to go down on a woman. I don't think a cock is that attractive, when you think of it, but that's what I want. I think a woman's vagina, her whole body, is better."

"Okay."

"Well, is it like that for Michelle? Does a cock give her the creeps?"

"Wait," I asked, "you think women are prettier than men?"

"Yes."

"And you think a vagina is prettier than a cock?"

"God, yes."

"But you'd rather suck cock than eat pussy?"

"I..." She hesitated. "I suppose, though I've really never thought of it that way. I...no, I don't think I'd want to lick a woman...at least her pussy, anyway."

"Her body?"

"Well, to be honest, I suppose yes, not that I have. Isn't that kind of like being with you? Making love like a woman, though you don't have a vagina, you have a penis."

"I guess."

"What about you? Is it the same for you? Do you think men or women are more attractive?"

"Women," I answered, instantly.

"What about men?"

"What about them?"

"Are they attractive to you?"

"In general, no."

"But..."

"Well, I suppose some are."

Is that the case? Do I find some men attractive? Yes.

"Do you think a vagina is prettier than a cock," she asked, a smug smile on her face.

"A vagina."

She laughed. "You sure have no problems with mine, do you?" Of course not, licking her was probably my absolute favorite thing to do.

I just frowned at her.

"See, I don't think that's a turn on at all; I don't fantasize about licking another woman's pussy, though I'm sure you think that would be hot, right?"

"Yes," I admitted softly.

"What about sucking a cock?"

I blushed. "You know I fantasize about you..."

"No, no, Sara," she sat up. "You're right, I know that. I mean, do cocks disgust you, or do you ever think about, you know..."

I swallowed. "Touching one myself?"

She nodded.

"Yes," I said, looking away.

"Especially when you're Sara?"

"Yes," I said again.

"Hmmm," Emily cooed, stroking my thigh. "Well, I suppose it is only fair that if you fantasize about me with a woman that I can fantasize about Sara sucking a cock, can't I?"